WARNING!!! I'm sarcastic, weird, artistic, my name is Lily, I'm also honest, i don't often care, if you don't like tegan and sara then we can't be friends. aaaannnnddd,,,I'M A LESBIAN!!! I'm also 18 and from Connecticut. i've got a soft spot for butches/androgynous chicks too
First of all…FUCK YOU!!!
Second of all,
Anxiety is NOT just a feeling. Anxiety is a clinical condition having to do with lack of brain stimulation. And it’s because of that lack of stimulation that the brain decides to freak out during certain situations or over certain things.
You don’t know what it feels like to constantly feel like you’re alone and want to scream for someone. or even just to scream at the top of your lungs but you can’t. And you know you can’t. And it drives you up a fucking wall that you can’t do it when you want to so fucking badly.
You have no fucking idea how much energy it takes out of us when we have anxiety attacks or panic attacks. For most of us when we have bad ones we feel like sleeping forever with a comfort object (in my case it would be a pitcher of water)
You don’t know that fucking feeling every morning when you have butterflies so bad they make you sick and you know they won’t go away.
So don’t say “sorry I’m just having a little anxiety right now” when you’re fucking nervous.
Because anxiety isn’t something you fuck around about
I’m angry and sad and confused and need a hug.
This is why I don’t talk to people.
Because I get let down every damn time.
And I’m better off on my own
So fuck everyone
Today at work I almost died.
A lesbian came in and called me “cutie” and was androgynous and adorable and looked slightly older then me but was amazing
That’s how I almost died….fangirling because some lesbian chick called me cute